so at this rate, I have one entry per month in the summer. Not too shabby. I'm currently sitting on the ground in my room going through what i want to take back to college and what I don't, carefully arranging the latter into piles that I can easily organize and tidy up in order to please the mother figure with their aestheticity in my absence. I was planning on leaving tomorrow, but im not sure how much i can clean up. I'm ready to get out, though. Packing stuff is trippy to your mind; you say you're going to cut down (I do, at least), but all these little things add up to a pile of shit that just happens to take up all the room in your (my, although we're still being hypothetical) car. Right now i have random clothes (I've packed up all my shirts but not pants) and music i need(/want) to pack up. I want to get to the bottom of it and fold up my bedding and just sleep in my brother's bed so i can get up and get errands (all fish camp-related) done. i am serious about leaving tomorrow. though i found out that my partner has a full house and will not be able to house me.... so i need to find a place to stay before i head off back to aggieland. I really do hope that i end up taking back less than i brough home last year. i really don't need extra shit that i'm not gonna use and don't need. it's 4h21 now so hopefully i can get to bed at 5, get 7 hours of sleep and finish everything i need to in order to leave tomorrow. even if i don't leave tomorrow, i want it to be possible at a moments notice so i don't have to stress about it later. stress now, relax later, i'd rather.
there is a beautiful, out of tune stand up piano in my room that takes up a lot of space.... but i dont wanna get rid of it. it's a family heirloom. my granpa taught my momma how to play on it, i learned how to play on it. much good things attatched to it... but i play my keyboard. i guess what i'm saying is
ahhh i just found my favorite tie from high schoool!!!!!
i'm not gonna lie. i miss wearing a blazer and oxford shirts and different color khakis and ties. oddly enough, most jesuit guys found a way to let personality come out in the myriads of combinations one might be able to make out of those.
but i'm definately gonna find a way to work ties back into my groove.
current dilemmas:
-there's a cd stuck in my computer and it won't eject
-i can only find 1 shoe of like 4 pairs of shoes
-my brother is still out and is gonna be back at 5 supposedly so i can't sleep in his bed... i have to finish mine (it's gonna take a while and its now 4h45)
- i have ADD (it's a more chronic than current dilemma)
-no matter how many times i do the laundry, i ALWAYS find more dirty clothes
i can't wait to leave.
i like the worst-case scenario survival handbook. it is the epitome of useless-but-if-i-ever--needed-to-know-it-i'd-be-SOL-no-more knowledge, which is pretty much kickass to possess.
it's that time to start winding down for the night (5 am)
god i hope i can get everything done tomorrow.
aand i'm out. peace out, people.
fish camp festivites start in about 50 hours!!!!!AHHHH I'M SO EXCITED
as much as one can be at 5am at least
i dont think i've used the am/pm system to reference time in about a year. you see, i'm on international time (military for those of you who know it to be so), cuz i'm just that hardcore about living 'la vie mondiale' (lit.= the worldly life. see: the back of my cellphone)
god im tired. fish camp is not going to help the cause. at all. | 
